| What I do best... |
[06 Dec 2009|08:26pm] |
I seem to write in here the most when I am procrastinating doing something I should really be doing. But I guess thats what I do best. Procrastination....one day it will be the death of me Im sure but for now I guess I can rest easy.
So I should be working on my Poetry Portfolio but of course Im not. One because I don't have the critera handout because my Brillant porfessor ran out and never emailed me it. Hes lucky hes gorgeous and brillant lol or else I might really be mad. He did however email an eplaination of the handout...which makes me uneasy...but Im sure it will be just fine...im only short 3 poems. Although times like these make me wonder why I became an english major? But then again I guess its because I love every minute of it...even when I complain.
Grandma came home today! Im so glad! She has gotten so small and so tiny. But shes in good spirits and home for the holidays =) I have gotten all my christmas shopping done and Im so happy! One less thing to do you know? I love giving gifts its one of m favorite things to do...especially Kellys gifts they always have a theme and I work so hard on it lol
I for one can't wait for this semester to be almost over! Although considering this is my last semester I am a tad nervous...come this spring its over! lol And then HAWAII!!!!! I can't believe it...my dream...its so close yet so far...and without Aunt Becky and Uncle Nicky it would not be possible....I cant wait for June because Im going to Hawaii for my birthday can you believe it? I cant...
I do feel a little selfish since my dad is losing his job....but I feel if I stay positive good things happen....look at my grandma and cathy they are almost 100% better and if you stay positive I believe it will happen.
Well my christmas bonus from the office was amazing this year and as much as I complain about my job I love it...its interesting and fun. I can't wait for Christmas im going to see my Aunt Cathy and Im making my Anisete cookies! You have no idea how happy I was they came out like my grandmothers I was so excited...that was the best gift from my grandma =) Who knew she would answer my prayers? lol
alright enough procrastinating...back to work.
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| I believe |
[29 Nov 2009|06:08pm] |
Its been weeks? years? since I last updated and so much has happened I cant possibly say it all now. My time is now mostly tied up with school,work and the hosptial. I guess thats the way life goes...Its been a rough year for my family but I am no stranger to hard I feel as if things are always hard and I am realtively use to it.
Im gradauating this year and Im scared as can be...especially since we might be moving anyway I have no idea where Im going to itern if we move but Im excited to hear back from all the interships I have applied for and to start my career...oh god im old I cant believe it my career, Of course adding another thing to my already busy schedule is going to be hard. But to intern at Random House or Scholastic will be awesome.If it happens...
My dad is losing his job this January and I cant even imagine whats going to happen...A part of me hopes we do move I would love to get out of the city and start fresh and new but I cant help but worry...which is why Im saving every penny I have, Thankfully me,mom and cat all still have our jobs and cat has made almost a full recovery from last year and at least that is something to be thankful for.
Grandma is sick the thought of losing another grandparent is just an unbareable thought and it kills me to think I all i can do fo her is sit with her in the hosptial. Especially around the holidays.I just want her to get better. I believe she will.
Kims wedding was Gorgeous and I was so happy to be in it. I had lots of fun and even though I complained the whole way through I still love it.
But it hasnt been all bad I have been published in my schools magazine wich one CUNYS top magazine in the city last year and Im very proud of myself and my poetry .
With the Holidays coming I also believe its going to be better. My work load will lighten, Grandma will bet better and My job will well it will still be my job but at least I have Michelene and Kelly for when things get to rough
oh and score almost all done with my christmas shooping!
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| Let the monster see you smile.... |
[28 Aug 2009|07:04pm] |
So I havent updated in a while but its been because I was busy and a little of laziness. I guess this is the offical end of summer even though technically for me I still have another week or so off. But almost everyone I know is going back to school...George has been back since the 21st. A lot happened this summer and i promise to update with photos soon (just for you Lia Chia) I hung out a lot with Micha partly because George wasn't here cause of his internship (but yay next semester hes interning at newark!) but we had good times...i should text her and ask her how her first day went. We did so much we went to the aquarium, rode the cyclone, saw my sisters keeper and time travelers wife, and ate 1,0000 lunches together. Me and George had fun too we went to Maryland for 4 days and hung out on the beach and we went to six flags and splish splash andI got a beautiful watch for our 3 year anniversary...can you believe its been that long? Hung out with Kelly YAY SHES 21 NOW! We just celebrated her birthday and we saw paper heart, harry potter, transformers, adventureland, year one and that terminator movie which where awesome we also went to the tribeca street fair and psorasis walk . I started my humira! Which has been probablly the best thing for my health. My skin is completely changed and Im so glad! Work has been good quiet which is a blessing since in a few days its going to get crazy and we are going to be pulling late nights and Im going back to 3 days a week (part time) Even though I hate staying so late Im looking forward to the fat pay checks because it makes it possible to pay for everything. I guess the best thing about the summer is Roxy our brand new puppy which is great because it turned Cathys health around! She has made almost a full recovery from her illness and Im very thankful for that.
Well im glad that school is starting soon I cant wait to start my english classes and to get back into the flow of things also the fall is a plus I love the fall its my favorite season. Plus kims wedding is coming up this November and bridal shower plus a bunch of other things. Yoga is starting again soon and thats a relief I feel so out of shape and like i dont get enough exercise...well enoguh procrastinating Im gonna go read my book.
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| Pros and Cons of Humira |
[16 Jul 2009|11:09am] |
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Cons:
- I have to inject myself
- It hurts
- I don't like blood
- The sound is freaky
- It lowers my immune system
- Im bruised the next day
- It makes me tired
Pros:
- My Skin is clear so I dont look like a monster anymore
- I can wear tank tops and shorts and dresses again
- My skin will look nice for Kims wedding
- My scalp is better too
- Im not embaressed by the way I look
- My face is clear
- I can wear a bathing suit / go to the beach again
- For the first time since i was 15 I feel like people are looking at me and not my psoriasis
well i guess the pros have it...i shouldnt complain but sometimes after an injection i get nervous...i have to moniter my temps and drink healthly drinks because i work in a doctors office which leaves me more vulnerable....its hard but oh well story of everyones life right?
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| A quickie? |
[01 Jun 2009|10:46am] |
Boredom has hit me in school. I have finished my classes and Im waiting for Melissa.
I have a butt load of pics to post from Cindys party that i promised a few people...but im not home so i cant now...
My birthday is in 5 days! Of course Im sick...lol i always have the worst birthdays...but i still love my birthday and this year it should be interesting!
Im trying to get in touch with Kelly because I want to go to a concert this monday for 20 bucks! Wish she would answer my texts!
I have to babysit on tuesday and wednesday...which im so happy about cause i need extra cash for my birthday since my pay was shit! I missed 3 days because of my stupid illness and it really set me back! I miss my big fat pay check...this was a shit one like a stepping stones one lol but i only work 4 days So of course it was shit I usually work a lot more.
Im going to go get my nails and hair done with Micha on thrusday (hope I feel better actually hope we both feel better!) Im going to go back to my natural color I think even though everyone loves the blonde and think it looks natural because its also mixed with red but eh I dont want to be multi color for kims wedding so might as well go back to the original and then after her wedding probablly dye it back to red and chop it off.
Went to the 5th ave feast with Kelly yesterday, i really like how we go every year and never get anything. Although for the 18th ave feast we always play games and buy something and that one is much smaller. Eh whatever We had fun and we decided to go home when it started to rain....and then the sun came out as soon as we both got to my house...but eh we were done...to much sun.
Alright I got a half hour to kill let me go search for something to do. I cant wait till my last final.
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| its way past my bed time... |
[12 May 2009|10:41pm] |
I don't usually write in here but Im up and i need to vent. Im sick and im tired and i just got home from work! Ok now i dont expect anyone to feel sorry for me...because i honestly know people dont give a shit but when someone is sick is it so hard to let them go home early?
Ok i know im being selfish but i have to wake up and go to school in the morning...im running on no sleep cause of my cold, I had school and I had to go to the doctors andd work...I cant keep my fustration in i have to let it out. Is it so hard to just be nice to someone and show them some consideration?
Obviously it is especially for people who don't care cause your pt time or because your only in school till 12:30! SOMEONE ALWAYS HAS IT HARDER THEN YOU! People with full time jobs have to get up and go to work everyday! People who are in school till really late are stuck in school all day! You know what? Im sick of hearing about it. All i ever hear is well your not here all day from both sides! Well you know what? NEWS FLASH TO ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO BITCH AND COMPLAIN TO ME! I HAVE A FULL TIME FUCKING LIFE TOO! I get up every morning at 6AM to go to school at 8AM then i have to race to work cause i only have a half hour to get there. Then on my days off from work I babysit and its not just one family i do constantly its like 8 different families I babysit for on different occassions! My day starts at 6 and if im lucky i can get to bed at like 12ish which is hard especially when thats the time i usually get home from babysitting and or done with school work after getting home at like 9ish from work. I also have a bf and friends i love to see and talk too and care about. So you know what? Im sick of people telling me i dont have it hard and they do just because I may not be a bitcher and complainer everyday doesnt mean my life isnt hard! I just make it look easy cause Im chill...
but sometimes you just got to let it out before you explode!
Im so going to bed now
shout out to my Li Chia! welcome to lj! love you honeybee
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| Its time to wake up, time to make up, time to shake these memories |
[24 Mar 2009|11:58am] |
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I hate when i have a long break in school...I just finished up my math test and now have like 2 hours to kill. Wonderful. I also hate writing in here in school I feel like people read my shit. Although Im sure Im just being paranoid. I have a lot to do in the next few days and I have been procrastinating.
Cathy's birthday is coming up and I still have yet to get her a gift. Im seeing Wizzard of Oz this saturday! Can I get a boooya! lol I also have some babysitting gigs I need to set up for and call back. I also have to finish my lab report ( due in 3 weeks so im not that worried about it) I need to study for my lab test again 2 weeks away. Getting back my Sociology test tomorrow...thinking I did good nothing lower then A - . I need to finish reading my book for english...even though i dont take english...Professor Dill is just amazing and lets me sit in with her class during my break on wednesdays.
Im so lazy and tired. Work is awesome though I flew SOLO! Yay! Im so proud of myself. Leaving Stepping Stones was a good call...I see now that I was just to comfortable and not putting myself out there enough and to be nervous and scared about certain things in normal and you have to learn new things and put yourself out their or else you always be stuck I need to hangout with Micha next friday I think we are going to Delias for Danielas b-day...Im not a fan of lounges but ill go to make her happy. I need to ask Micha if she still wants to go to the concert and if she wants to maybe go to mid-evil times? I dont know just thinking about it or maybe six flags...
Saw Kelly last weekend but next week we are going to see Adventure Land because lets face it superbad was amazing and One of the best movies ever and if the creaters of that wrote this it has to be kick ass...although im a little disappointed Cera isn't in it...i love him <3
I have so much to do before I go to work today...I had to wear my scrubs to school which just draws more attetion to myself...great. I have to watch all my shows on DVR before my mom flips a shit. I also gotta stop by the bank...and ugghh I just remembered I forgot my direct deposit form for Christina! ERRRRR.
Im kinda just spitting out whatever pops into my head. I feel weird cause I never write in here....eh Im gonna go get some food since I dont eat at work and call Georgie.
p.s. thats a blue
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| "Please shut off all phones and no vibrators" Professor Shurman |
[05 Mar 2009|12:44pm] |
I don't know why but for some reason today I thought that was the funniest shit in the world. Im in the computer lab which sucks, I have to wait an hour for Melissa to get out of class so she can drive me home. I hate waiting im very impatient...I also have to go to the potty and i do not potty in school since they all smell like gross urinals!
Im shocked I am writing in this thing, No one is on facebook at this time so I guess thats why I have resulted to writing in this thing. Not to mention I don't feel like doing homework so i am procrastinating. I cant even buy my books yet because I need more cash, Biology is crazy I have to buy a lab coat, goggles, gloves and a txt book and wrk book...Im not becoming a doctor! Im taking this shit as a requirement! What a great way to take more of my hard earned cash. I also have to buy a math work book and my public speaking text book.
I hate text books they are heavy and mean and I waste hundreds of dollars on them every year. I also hate Math my level of achievment will never reach higher then a B and Im ok with that , because me and math don't get along never have and never will. Math is just on e big confusing bubble and I have to spend hours just to achieve my B thankfully this is my last math class of my life and then me and math can go our seperate ways.
Besides the madness of text books and evil math Im pretty ok with the terms of everything I have Jules in my Sociology class which is great cause he is beyond smart and he keeps me company during my 2 1/2 gap on wednesdays and my 1 1/2 gap on monday and thursday. He is also hysterical and my favorite gay person in the world! lol and hes not afraid to tell people thats hes my favorite either! I have Armando and chris in my science class which of course is good but also means trouble...my art grade got lowered from an A+ to an A because of them...but hey at least now I dont have to deal with making a Lab group.
Today is now over as in school wise, but now I have to go to work (give in my 2 weeks...I have been dreading this all day) I was suppose to do it yesterday but I babysat instead cause I needed the cash now...(so I can buy all my books on saturday) then after work and my 2 week notice I have to go to the back deposit my check?babysitting money then run to Doreens house to babysit, then I finally get to go home to rest and sleep a little late not as late as I like since Im covering Gaby at 12 tomorrow.
What a day School (8am to 1:40) Work (3:30 to 6) then babysitting (630 to 8) ....I need to learn to slow down and maybe say No?
oh and i have to call back Misha.
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| "It's none of my buisness what my friends say about me behind my back" - Winston Churchill |
[02 Mar 2009|04:47pm] |
Well it certainly has been long since I wrote in this thing, Ironically I roll more old school, I mostly stick to a notebook an pen now...I remember when this use to be my place to release anger and what not but now its just a place I read community livejournals of book clubs and blogs or gossip in the celeb world an what not.
Im rather bored and sort of just felt like writing cause of that amazing quote I found today in this book Im reading called Dear Diary by Lesley Arfin its really amazing, it kinda like perks of being a wallflower (amazing btw) meets dear god is me margaret (if margaret was a raver junkie) Im also piss ass nervous about flying home tomorrow and having to deal with a whole bunch of shit. Plus I hear the weather is beyond shitty and I really dont want to go back to snow after being in beautiful 65-70 degree weather here in Florida with my bestest pal Misha. But alas all good things must come to an end.
When I get back I have to make up all the shit i have missed although the snow day off was a plus in some ways because I only missed a day of school instead of 2 days. I have to look over some papers from the doctors office...also maybe see the doctors since i did get sick the day we arrived here (wonderful!) I also have to give my 2 weeks in to Stepping Stones kiss my $8.65 goodbye say Hello to my 10 something job an hour with Misha! But giving in my 2 weeks is pretty crazy I have been there almost 3 years and now im up and leaving my kiddies in the middle of the school year which i feel like a major douchebage for...but hey money is tight as shit right now and i gotta pay the bills so I have to do what is right for me you know? Plus it could help out my family in case pops really does lose his job (please god forbid) Also I got Kims wedding in less then 9 months and our dresses come in in May so i gotta pay for that another whole in my pocket....Hopefully the parentals of the kids i take care of will understand this...upside though my babysitting life will get easier and having my straight days of babysitting is good (since its fresh cash in my pocket right away) no more having to run to babysitting after stepping stones or having to cancel do to working the closing shift, since the DR's office gives me more hours with less days ( Hells Yess)
Also when I get back gotta check in with Kelly since our last plans got screwed up royally. Also gotta make sure my We the Kings tickets came ( April 30th Bamboozle tour!) I cant wait it, its a bitch driving to Long Island though =( I need a new manicure as well, Im kinda pissed it didn't last as long as I wanted it too, but hey it lasted longer then it does when i got to work. Wow i wrote a lot...talk about boredom! well Misha is sleeping and I had nothing else to do but hey Downtown Disney tonight (coolest shit betttter the city walk! Although Mardigra was awesome at Universal) anywhoo im gonna go since i need to get ready since were gonna eat sundaeessss the size of my head (no joke these things are like the size of me and Mishas heads combined!)
p.s. Pray for me tomorrow...if I die in a plane crash (how much would that suck i dont even get to start my new job) i leave all my belongings too Kelly since she did have first dibs (sorrrry guys...but hey none of you read this thing accept Kelly so only she will know)
p.s. Damn Kelly for giving up texting for lent...and damn me for giving up cookies...i really want some oreos right about now.
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| An extremely small world |
[10 Jan 2009|08:33pm] |
Lol apparently me and my good friend Jenelle were on a tv show together before we met a million years later in college and I thought it was hysterical she actually found it...Im in the beginging in the green shirt in the back...then Jenelle in sitting on the window a little later on into the show.
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| SM and BD / Signing and Concert! |
[06 Aug 2008|09:39am] |
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Last Friday was the SM BD CONCERT! Omg It was amazing I had a blast with Kelly and we were SUPER close to the stage and I mean like I could feel sweat! lol and Justin from Blue October was amazing....his voice live is incredible not fake at all you can tell he has a talent.
When we got there it was INSANE we decided to leave around 4:30 since we both had to work. We got there at like 5 ish and there was already a HUGE crowd around the block. So me and Kelly were like CRAP what do we do???So obviously we cut the line like anyone normal would...well anyone from Brooklyn that is they were mostly out of towners so no one said anything and they were actually really nice when I had to Interviews for TTR they let me and held my place. It was pretty awesome. Not to mention how close we were to the stage when we got in we were def happy we cut the line. Anywho. After we got our book plates signed and all our free crap...we went to Borders
So we were on these insanely nice busses where they showed you sneak peaks of the Twilight movie which we are going to see!!! They also did interviews and stuff like that. I was really excited. We got a free CD and Buttton for going to Borders and they gave us a nice ride there which was awesome. I also got to meet KIM!
which was ever more exciting because we talked for a little while...like 5 seconds but whatever lol Then after that me and Kelly grabed a pretzel and a drink and headed to wait online we were 5th! Because we are so awesome.
I also video taped a lot at the Concert because my camera is AWESOME! lol Well I got to go I have a lot to do today I got to babysit (even when i dont have work i have work) Pick up my check and go by Matt his graduation gift and a bunch of other crap okkkkk byezzzz
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| Bored Survey Time |
[15 Jun 2008|06:58pm] |
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When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Hmm I dont know a year or so ago?
What is the last thing you spent money on?
My dads gift on friday.
Congratulations you just had a daughter!!! What do you name her?
Emma
What are you craving right now?
Im not really hungry but i could go for pizza
What was the last thing you cried about?
My mom yesterday
When you buy something and your change is 2 cents, you keep it or tell them to keep it?
I usually tell them to keep it but sometimes i just let them give it to me
Have you ever blocked someone on MySpace before?
of course.
Are you happy?
yea why wouldn't i be?
Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
Yea tons but unfortunatley it wasnt true
What was the last movie you watched at home?
I just watched Nancy Drew on HBO
What's something fun you did today?
I got to wear my rainboots =)
When is your birthday?
June 6th
What kind of milk do you drink?
Lactaid
What are you going to do after this?
nothing
Do you like pickles?
i like cucumber pickles
What are your plans for the weekend?
the weekend is over
Do you like the color green?
yea
Last restaurant you went to?
Bridgeview but technically its a dinner
How many hours did you sleep last night?
idk?
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
yes
Do you like your name?
yeah
What do you do when you are bored?
phone or computer
Do you have a job? If so what is it called?
Yea im a pre-school teacher
What were you doing an hour ago?
watching Nancy Drew
What are you doing now?
this survey
What is your favorite song?
At the moment The Girl by city and colour
Who can you tell anything to?
George
What time is it?
707
most visited website?
livejournal
Did your last kiss mean anything?
it always does
Do you currently have a hickey?
no lol
What were you doing at 7 AM?
sleeping
What was the last movie you saw in theater?
King Fu Panda
What are you wearing?
Kapries tank top and no socks
Have you ever cried while in the shower?
yesss
Where do you want to get married?
Far away
Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
I want too
Do you tell your best friend EVERYTHING?
of course
When was the last time you had butterflies?
in March when i last saw him
When was the last time you talked to your number one?
on myspace? Today around 1
Do you have any piercings?
My ears
What is the weather like today?
it keeps changing thunderstorms/ hot
Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
sober
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| Psoriasis walk! |
[18 May 2008|03:47pm] |
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Thats right!
Melissa came!
Me and my dad!
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| canceled |
[13 May 2008|04:20pm] |
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I hate when class gets canceled!I came all the way to school for my 11:30 class just to wait for my 3 o`clock class! Err. This is weird I'm Typing on my blackberry. Anywho I feel weird cause I bought lunch from home because I'm trying to save Money and evetwhere I usually sit is taken its becuse the weather is nice but annoying maybe ill go for a walk after this.anywho the summer is beginig and I feel busy! This Sunday is the psorasis walk in the Bronx zoo ten its my last week of school then I have work my new summer sched.then george comes home then we leave for Florida and before you know it its fall! And my fall sched is packed!!!
I hope its a good summer!
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| Home again. |
[28 Apr 2008|11:26am] |
This is a pretty bad picture but its the only one i had of everyone.
So home again,..the trip was beautiful but i dont know its always nice to come home.
Of course its raining so im not in school...lol some things never change...
I hate coming home and having to catch up on everything you missed the week you were gone.
Unfortunatley work today...back again.
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| Free write. |
[06 Apr 2008|04:10pm] |
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I had an to do a free write in JRL32 today and I haven't done that in forever, I Dont remember the last time I just sat down to just write..although technically it doesnt count because it was for school. But it felt that way because it could be a story a poem an article anything...So it felt like back in the day when i had all the time in the world to write. Anyway this is what I came up with she said to write about whatever comes out. Its a poem not about anything in paticular its called Walking Away:
The day we turned our backs and walked away
Neither of us having more to say
We closed the window and shut the door
I wonder if you hurt anymore?
Did it bring a tear to your eye knowing we let it die?
That we didn't bother to work it out
Just let our anger and pride wear us down
Am I still apart of your past
Or have I been erased from that
When we turned and walked away
Did you even want me to stay?
Do you remember when you realized it was over?
I remember when it was...
I guess its called a falling out
And its really over now
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